Thankful and proud

Well I am day number 6 of being sick but since I decided that on top of rest and medication I would have a postive attitude I have actually been able to get to work everyday and even do some of the day to day stuff at home. This is a big deal for me since normally I get sick and go hide until I get better.

Last night my hubby did the jack o lantern with my youngest one which is a first. If he has done this in the past it is with me bugging him but nope last night he took on this chore all by himself. Since he has switched jobs he is so relaxed and so much more involved in the day to day runnings of our house.

This week there was a slim chance he might get a job far away which would have meant him only being home on weekends. The old him would have announced this possibility with no discussion but instead we talked about why he wanted the job and the things he would miss out on. I was shocked to find out how much he enjoys being part of the day to day. So I guess we all grow and mature.

I am very thankful that he decided to stay put and keep the job in Toronto. I also got my own car this week it is used and very basic but wow what freedom to have my own wheels. I am loving it.

Survived and at work

Well I guess blogging in the wee hours was therapeutic because I woke up this morning feeling almost better and was able to get to work. And yeah for me I am actually busy today which helps so much.

I am trying to balance blogging and life so hopefully in the next few weeks I will find a good balance since I am loving blogging.

So much too say and so little time

I know I have used this title before but it is so appropriate for this blog.

The kids and hubby have been sick for a week and guess what they decided to share and now it is my turn. I should be calling in sick but my boss is not the most understanding so I am unable to sleep since I know how nasty she will be if I need to call in but alas that is how it will most likely be.

Aside from that I went to my Aunt's tonight for her birthday supper I was not sure how this would go since her son and wife were going to be there and we don't always get along but God answered prayers and we had a blast. This is a good turning point my aunt was so excited that we were all together and I as always spoiled her with flowers and cake. To me this is not that big of a deal but she spent the entire night beaming and bragging about both so I guess it is a big deal for her. On the drive home the fog was so thick you could not see in front of you and it is all back roads home so no lights and then all of a sudden out pops a coyote thankfully I was able to stop and he made it across the road safely.

In amazing news my hubby has a new job that will let him be home almost every night and we got a second car. The second car is such a blessing and will make my life so much easier. Now my girlfriends can be chauffered around town for a change. I owe them a lifetime of drives.

I have comitted to my step class once a week to the point where I have booked a sitter for the weeks that my hubby can't be home. This may not be a big deal to most but for me I hate exercise but need it just to stay calm and I love the class so I must say I am proud of myself.

Love - how it really should be

This is some lyrics from a song called It Was by Chely Wright. I had to post them becuase this is exactly how love should be.


It was real...It was magic
It was calm...It was savage
It was cool as a breeze
It was warm to the touch
It was never enough
It was always too much
It did all the things love does
That's how I knew
It was

Good news

Yeah my hubby has a job offer we don't have all the details yet but it is a job. God does answer prayer we didn't expect a job offer until after Christmas so this is such a bonus.

The extra bonus is that we will be getting a second vehicle which is required for this job and for the first time in our marriage I will be able to give a value opinion into which vehicle we get.

So all around it has been a good night around here.

Relaxing and growing

I am sitting here listening to my husband vacum and my youngest having a bath and I am actually relaxed and blogging. You see I manage my house - which means I clean, cook, do laundry, pay bills and whatever else is required on the inside of the house and my hubby handles all outside chores. So whenever he decides to help with the inside of the house I normally feel guilty but not tonight. Who says we have to live inside the boundries we decided upon when we first got married and had no little ones helping mess the house and tire us out.

I am very pleased that I am able to let him help okay so he won't vacum the way I would but hey at least it is one less thing I have to do tonight. I also was blessed to come home to my son's girlfriend having done the dishes and finally cleaning the basement. So I have time to blog and brag.

I had an awesome night with Ethan we went out on a date just the two of us and then came home and snuggled under the covers while we watched Cat in the Hat. This is a perfect night for me and there isn't many so I treasure those I do get.

Well on this note I hear Ethan calling me to get him out of the tub for story time.

Happily Married and Feel Guilty

I realized today that although I am happily married and have the kind of marriage where we still can't keep our hands off of each other I feel guilty. You need to realize that I do not feel guilty about much so this came as a shock to me.

I started to try to figure out why I feel guilty and it came to me that I feel guilty because most of my friends are either single, getting divorced or in unhappy marriages. Then I wonder if I am just kidding myself about how good things are and I look deep and yeah for some crazy reason we really are happy.

Now as I have said before I did not get the price charming I put an order in for but I did get a modern day prince. I feel bad when I blurt out to my friends about the romantic thing he did last night or if I just comment about how good things are. I feel like I am rubbing it in their faces. I feel for them about their relationship I have been in their shoes but now I want to be happy and not feel guilty about being happy.

It just seems that in today's society it is the norm to not be happy so when you are happy people question you or figure that you are just making things up. I wish we could all be in the bubble I am in but I do believe that because I am in such a good place that it makes me better at helping them or just listening.

Trust me we have had our issues and some of been huge and the thought of leaving has come up but when we decided that we were sticking it out things changed but I think that is because I know without a doubt that the sun rises and sets on my head in my husbands world.

I was also blessed to grow up surronded by crazy in love people who still held hands and kissed even after years of marriage. I had to learn that marriage is an ever growing process and if you are not both growing or commited to growing then the marriage will not work.

Amazing Thanksgiving Memories

What an awesome day yesterday. Food and friends were amazing but what I loved was watching my dad and my best friend's dad teaching my son's girlfriend how to make mashed potatoes, turnips and sweet potatoes. The look of pride on her face when supper was served and the compliments going to her were awesome.

This years supper was what Thanksgiving is supposed to be about. Everyone pitched in for the cooking and clean up. It was amazing extra people were invited at the last minute but it was no biggie.

The night went on way too late and I will be a tired girl tonight but what awesome memories we will have.

My oldest was so patient with my Aunt as she kept telling him the same story over and over. Not one fight and no one rushed to leave the table. This is one for the memory book.

Thanksgiving Preparations

Well for my American friends Thanksgiving in Canada is on Monday. I have my supper tonight which means I should be in the kitchen cooking something or setting the table or one of the million other things that have to be done.

I am grateful for all the help that I have to make this meal. My aunt is downstairs cleaning, my dad is on his way to help with whatever job I give him but this morning I just want space all to myself.

I got up early this morning so I could have my tea and listen to tunes but as always in my house life happens. My boys had friends over so there were extra bodies on my couches which means no tunes but I could have my tea which I was good with but then my aunt and Ethan decided they should get up early to help me which I am thankful for since I am so behind in my preparations for today. So I decided to steal 10 minutes to myself and blog.

The house does smell delicious. Turkey is in the oven, dressing is cooked just needs to be reheated and I have my fall candles going so it smells like pumpkin pie even though the pie is coming from one of my many guests.

Well I will sign off and go tackle my holiday preparations and by tonight I will be laughing and loving having everyone here I just needed to put everything in perspective.

Happy Thanksgiving to my Canadian followers.

Visited by Ghosts

As you all know from the name of my blog that I believe in ghosts. Well I am used to my past family members visitng me with a message or just to comfort but they normally come one at a time and not often. Well this Sunday night as I am drifting into a good sleep not one but all of my past relatives decided to visit me. This was a comfort visit because of all the stress in my life right now.

Well first it was my mom, then my Aunt Rae, then Uncle Mel, then both of my grandmothers, then Pappa Eddie and finally Pappa Joe. It was so comforting and peaceful I could feel them holding me and whispering encouragement. I must say by the last visit I was getting tired and had to get up for work the next morning so I told them that next time they wanted to all visit me to please check with each other and just do one big visit. I am sure my husband thinks I am crazy because he can hear me having these conversations at night.

You see although I am asleep when I get visited I can feel it so much that it is draing and comforting all at once. The neat part this time is that each visit was in the kitchen of the house I group up in and everyone was at the spot they always sat at even though it was just the two of us.

Unfairness at work

I know I have not been blogging of late life has been crazy busy and with only one computer in the house it is hard to find time to blog. My husband is still searching for a job so he is constantly on the computer and that is completley understandable but I miss being able to blog.

I realize today why my job tends to stress me out occasionally it is not the job at all it is the unfairness of the office politics. I do one thing that is not work related and during work time I get pounced on. Yet everyone else gets to do as they please when they please with no consequence. I have no problem owning up to my time usage but I find it ironic to be called into my bosses office about a call I had to take today that I had offered to make up the time for to see her doing personal banking and while I am talking to her she gets a personal call. I know it is not fair to vent after not blogging for awhile but I just had to get it out. Thanks for letting me vent.