Excitment for one night

Our snowblower decided to have a gas leak tonight and the smell leaked into our house. So we had the fire department come out. Our neighbours came out to see if we needed anything which I thought was great. My one neighbour even took in my youngest for the night. I had a crap ass day but this made me realize how lucky I am. I have a house and a neighbourghood with people that really do care. Thank you lord for the reminder

Running away

Today is the first time ever that I sat in my car in the driveway wondering how hard it would be to drive away and never look back. I did not leave but the thought was there. I love my family but lately I just feel like they all want too much of me and I'm losing who I am. My husband is terribly depressed over not working, my youngest has been sick for it seems like a million years, my middle one is trying to find his way to manhood and needs guidance, my olderst childs girlfriend is pregnant and she needs guidance, love and support and that leaves my oldest he just needs me in a general purpose. Of course on top of this is my job and my house that both require my attention. I have never questioned my being a wife and mother but today for the briefest of moments I just wanted to put the car and drive until I found something that didn't require my attention. I am glad this was a brief moment but boy oh boy I need the Good Lords wings and support to get through this period in my life.

How lives are intertwined

I just ready my heart sisters blog about an accident that happened twenty years ago. I never realized until today that she also knew the girl that died. It is amazing how intertwined our lives really are and have been for years before we realized it. I think we made God's sould hurt at how many times we had to cross pathes before we got the message that we are meant to be friends for life. I am so blessed that we are friends and will be for life. This last little while has been crazy and thankfully she has been there to help me through it all.