I have been crazy busy and that was a good reason for not blogging but I am now realizing its not that I'm too busy its that I'm in my fall funk but it has come early and snuck up on me.
I can understand why its here early I have so much on plate and so little time to process thoughts and emotions about these things. I am trying hard to kick my funk in the butt but it is not working so well.
I am going to go home today and put my house back in order which always helps me fight my funk but the biggest obstacle is the lack of energy that comes with this funk and the fact that the stuff on my main floor doesn't belong to me and yet I am the one that has to deal with the mess and figure out where to put everything.
I love my daughter in law and she has many great qualities but her organization and motivation are not part of that. So she needs to get her space in the basement organized for the baby that is due anytime now but instead she has moved herself to the main floor. I tried to be nice, be patient but now I'm done my house is crazy with all the people in it but everyone has a space and that is how it works.
I just feel like at times I have noone that truly helps or wants to help. I left my husband in charge of our youngest two nights this week and he didn't bother studying his spelling words with him or cleaning up at all. I talked to him last night about this and I was told that he has his own stuff to deal with and that is just how it is. I don't feel that this is acceptable. I have crap on my plate too but yet I still manage to do the day to day stuff and yes even study his words with him.
I am feeling like packing up my youngest and just leaving because then its just the two of us for me to worry about I know its not a solution but since nobody is listening to me right now it seems to be the easiest solution.
For the first time in a long time I have interests that I'm excited about and this is taking me away from the house and I would think with all the people in my house they would be able to keep on top of everything.
Thanks for letting me vent
