Not sure if anyone reads my blog anymore but it is funny it still helps me sort out my thoughts and feelings so I keep blogging.
I used to think I was a good friend the kind that people liked to have in their inner circle (not boasting) but lately as I reflect over the amount of people that have come in and out of my life over the years I am starting to wonder if I am somehow to cause for all the people that have come in and out over the years.
I do believe that not all friendships are meant to last a lifetime but only a season but I find it hard to believe that all those friendships that have gone away were meant to only be a season.
I sometimes wish I could be visited by ghost of friends in the past so I can find out why the friendship really ended.
I guess lately I am also feeling like my bff no longer wants to be a bff she has not said so in words but certainly in her actions. I am trying to believe that she is just going through life and at some point things will go back to the same way but I am finding it harder and harder to believe. The real proof has been the last few weeks I have been going through stuff that she would normally have been right here helping me with instead she hasn't said boo. I have mentioned it to her so we could get together and hang out and she replied I should just stay home.
I have asked her what is wrong multiple times and I have tried asking my hubby who knows her well what is up but he doesn't want to get in the middle and she says there is nothing wrong. I am not sure how to proceed with this friendship we have been through to much for me to just walk away. I will continue to pray and hope things get better even if they are changing
Of course I still read your blog, silly! :)
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm going to make a confession right now. At one time, it hurt me a lot to be replaced in your life by a new "BFF". Because I couldn't bring everything that she could to the table, I used to wonder if I still had a place in your life. I see now that I do (of course!), and that every relationship grows and changes. Your relationship with her is growing and changing too, and I don't think that you need to give up on it by any means...maybe she just needs a bit of space right now for some reason, but I am sure that with all that you have been through together, things will eventually work themselves out.
Love you,
-C
I know you did you silly girl but you are my heart sister and that is an unreplaceable position. We have such a solid relationship that it is amazing. Then again that is how you love it is full, fierce and protective.
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you still read and I am sure that mine and her friendship is just growing I just hope at the end it is better.
Thanks for always being there for me