I never realized how often I sleep on the couch until my children pointed it out the other day and then the next question was why? So I stopped to think about it and realized I sleep on the couch for two reasons one is my hubby snores like crazy but secondly its because lately I don't want to be near him. He is so moody and nasty about everything these days.
I tell him last week how hard this last year has been on me and how I'm feeling and I get the cold shoulder all night from him. He finally sent me a beautiful e-mail to support me but as I often say actions speak louder then words and lately his actions say he would rather be anywhere then with me and the kids.
I know hes depressed that he doesn't have a steady income and we are struggling but news flash this effects all of us. I guess eventually this will pass and hopefully we will get back to the good we once had although it seems harder and harder to find our way back. I guess going forward is the right direction but I'm scared about what that is going to look like.
